What really are the benefits of taking Metformin? I know that most young ladies with PCOS, are prescribed Metformin to lower blood sugar levels and to maintain elevated insulin levels but I have been taking Metformin for 6 years now and it has hit me that I do not know too much behind it.

Of course I did the odd google search when I was first prescribed Metformin but it struck me that my level of knowledge on something I am putting into my body everyday is minimal.

Do I even need to be taking Metformin?

My last visit to the Doctors’ (for something unrelated to PCOS), the Doctor (a young lady who had just graduated medical school) said that it was pointless me taking Metformin and asked if would like to be taken off of it. I said no because I was fed up chopping and changing my medication, I didn’t want to confuse my body even more.

But thinking about it now I am wondering if she was right. I’m not hugely overweight (according to I am just – (79kg and I’m 5ft 10), I eat healthy, I exercise 4-5 times a week and I’m not trying for children at the moment (maybe another 3-5 years!).

I have been told by the Doctor to take 1 x 500mg dose of Metformin a day which is the lowest dosage prescribed. I have researched and can see that the most effective dose of Metformin is 3 x 500mg a day.

It is a confusing topic and some people advise staying on Metformin even though I am not trying to conceive yet. I feel like I have convinced myself now that taking my one tablet a day is doing something to help with my PCOS but i’m not sure if it even is – my head is scrambled and I am not completely sure what to do!

Any advice/thoughts would be much appreciated.

Charlotte xx


PCOS. Help!

I honestly feel like I am fighting a constant battle when it comes to my health. My doctors are awful and I seem to always leave with more questions that I went with. One time, my doctor even GOOGLED my symptoms in front of me and diagnosed me from that. AS IF I HADN’T ALREADY DONE THAT!!

The reason for this blog post (rant) is because of my PCOS that I have been aware of (battling) for 8 years now. I have read so much material my brain feels muddled with all the information I try and take in on this subject. I think it probably makes sense to fill you in on my story and go back to the beginning…

I started my periods at quite an early age, I was 12 years old. From the day I first started my period until the age of about 17/18 I was on the dot regular. When I say I came on my period at 11:05am on a Saturday each month it is no exaggeration. I went on the pill at 16 and even this didn’t affect the timing of my period I was still like clockwork. I then had some problems with my pills, first I was put on Cilest and I gained a ton of weight and had SERIOUS water retention, honestly I was wobbling around everywhere! I came off of Cilest and then was put on Microgynon. The weight fell off but the migraines… oh my god. I persevered with Microgynon until I was about 20 years old at which point I decided to have a break from the Pill (and contraception altogether). I broke up with my boyfriend at the time and I didn’t sleep around so I felt like it was a good opportunity to give my body a break.

I didn’t have a period for a 2 years! I thought my natural cycle would take a while to adjust to being off of contraception but I did panic and book a trip to my doctors after 6 months because along with the absence of my monthly visit from the painters I broke out in acne. It was getting me down, making me feel insecure and I didn’t want to leave the house. I was referred to the hospital and low and behold I was told that I have PCOS. I had the most unsympathetic doctor ever, who, when I asked what this is and how it would impact me replied… “Your’ll have trouble conceiving…” Thanks a lot. How insensitive.

I was confused and went back to my doctors who I felt was no help at the time. I was put on Metformin and told “don’t worry forget about it until you want to try for kids.” But how could I forget about it? I was put on medication for my skin which were no help at all, I was well and truly fed up.

One day last year my periods came back (alternative months but hey it was something!) I wasn’t on the pill so this was my real period not the artificial period that the pill provides. I was over the moon. I felt like my body hadn’t given up on me and although I used to moan about my periods when I had them, there is something about getting my period that makes me feel reassured and like I am a woman (as silly as this sounds).

I got into another relationship at this point so I had to think about going back onto contraception – I was so confused as to what would give me the fewest side affects and keep my period. The doctor I saw recommended the mini-pill (Noriday) – The mini-pill is Progestogen only. The doctor assured me that I would continue to get my period and I should give it a go – I trusted her so I agreed, this was a mistake. After 3 months of taking it I hadn’t had a period and when I went back to the doctors (a different doctor might I add) she said I wouldn’t get periods with the mini-pill. I cannot describe the anger I felt, I felt betrayed!

Anyway a year on and I am actually getting on with the mini-pill really well (aside from the fact I have no period). I booked an appointment more recently however because I’ve been experiencing extreme fatigue (literally so bad I fall asleep on the toilet at work if I shut my eyes!) Poor immune system, Aches, bland skin and hair, and finding it IMPOSSIBLE to lose weight when for the last year my diet and exercise has been very healthy and balanced (Yep…not even a pound shed). My doctor referred me for blood tests and I am waiting for the results but it got me thinking.. has this got anything to do with my PCOS?! Any thoughts and comments are much appreciated… I am pulling my hair out!

And so the journey begins….

Thank you for getting this far and most likely stumbling across this blog and finding it by pure chance.

I am not quite sure where to begin. Perhaps lets start with why I am doing this… why have I decided to create a new blog at this point in my life? I’m 25, I work 9am-6pm Monday to Friday, I’m up at 5:20am to get my sweat on. I get home at 7:45pm and by the time I have eaten, showered, sorted out my bag for the following day, it is practically bed time. My boyfriend and friends take up my evenings and weekends. I most definitely would say I am a busy bee and I do not have a lot of time to spare!

I think first and foremost it is important to share my thoughts and mindset which has led me to finally starting a blog of my own. I am embarking on a journey of self-love.. a journey that began a few years back. My mum had Breast Cancer and I practically went into hibernation for a whole year. I emerged back into reality a year later, 3 stone heavier and on the brink of depression, I was happy to sleep my life away and I was honestly scared that I would never have the capability to feel happiness again.

One day 2 years ago something clicked and a huge anxiety came over me … I was WASTING life. I was letting each day slip away and I had nothing to show for it. I prepared myself for a long journey to get myself back on track and oh my god what a journey it has been. At that time 2 years ago, I probably failed to prepare myself just how long it would take me to get back to “Charlotte” – I am definitely well on my way and I am the happiest I have been in a long time. I think the most important part of that has been acceptance. Accepting that I do not need to be the same weight I was four years ago. Accepting that I will have bad days. Accepting that I won’t have the motivation to go to the gym every and accepting that some days I just need to devour a HUGE bar of chocolate.

Anyway, as much as I am extremely happy right now I do feel stuck and in limbo and I don’t know why. I love my job and I work extremely hard but I feel like nothing in my life at the moment is for ME. I’m stuck in a routine of 9am-6pm ,which lets face it… is really 5am-9pm (Yes as mentioned I am that annoying person at the gym doors waiting to be let in at 6am!)

I’m rambling a ridiculous amount here so lets stick to the point. What am I going to cover in this blog? I am going to document anything to help me clear my head, a strange sort of therapy I suppose. I have PCOS and continuously want to learn about ways and methods that may help, perhaps I try these myself and share my findings. This blog is basically going to be an insight into my brain. How I’m feeling, what I’ve been doing.. this is my creative get-away and as the name of this blog suggests… This is my Haven.

“A plan is not always needed. Sometimes you just need to breathe, let go and trust the universe.”