Setting a Five Year Plan

How do you make a five year plan when you want to squeeze so much in? I feel like I am still so young but am reaching a point in my life where I do really have to start making some adult decisions!

I am all for setting goals and aims to work towards, but right now my life feels so crazy and unorganised that I feel as though if I set some goals and put in place a five year plan then I am just setting myself up to fail. I hate failing.

I am ambitious and I work very hard, I constantly want my brain to take in more and with my career I am always looking for my next challenge. My personal life however I am very much the opposite, I feel scared of life, and I do things on the safe side and at the moment I feel as though I am stuck and not getting anywhere. If you had asked me five years ago, I could not see myself being in this mess…

If you ask me what I would like to achieve in the next five years it would be the below. I am 25 so I feel as though setting some goals and aspirations at this point in my life is significant, I am a quarter of a century after all!

Charlotte’s goals to achieve by 30 years of age: 

  • Clear all my debt
  • Have sufficient savings
  • Own a home
  • Be at the peak of my career
  • Be happy
  • Be expecting a child or be very close to having one!

I look at this list and with how quick time is flying, I truly believe five years is not enough time to achieve all of these and it is making me anxious and very nervous. I look at other people and think “how are you so together?!?!”

For example, as mentioned in my previous post, I’ve been suffering from anxiety because I have recently accepted and taken note of my debt. I really, really, really should have listened to my mum when she told me to set money aside for a rainy day.

How am I going to clear this debt AND own a home AND have sufficient savings? If I am focusing on excelling in my career then do I have time for a baby?  If I am stressing about these things then how am I going to be HAPPY?!

Life is flying so quickly and I never appreciated this when I was younger. Is it best to just live life day by day?

Is setting a five year plan unrealistic and putting unnecessary pressure on ourselves? On the flip side is this way of thinking just burying our heads in the sand and not addressing our problems?

I would love to hear some thoughts on this, I am such an organised and together person at work but when it comes to my own life I feel hopeless!

Charlotte

xox

 

 

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Anxiety.

I honestly feel like I may be having a heart attack. My anxiety has been that bad over the past couple of days.

Today is the 4th day I am suffering with lots of worry,  an extremely fast heart rate and a tight chest. I’m not sure how much longer my body can cope with this.

My anxiety is definitely at its all time peak and I am knowingly having to take myself aside and calm myself down. I have been finding that the app Buddhify has been extremely helpful, in calming down my breathing and heart rate. There are so many options of meditation and controlled breathing exercises, so even if I am at work, I can take myself off for a few minutes so that nobody sees I have gone missing.

I’m not particularly sure what has triggered this surge of anxiety, I think I have got to a point where life has caught up with me and I am really worrying about the future. Will my money troubles stop me from getting a mortgage? Am in the right job for me? Will my hard work ever pay off?  What if I miss an opportunity because I am in the wrong place that day?

I do remind myself that there is so much more to life to spend precious time that I will never get back to worry about the above but I do believe you need to have a balance of reality and positivity.  I try and brush my troubles and worries aside and tell myself that life is too short and look at lovely quotes on Instagram and Pinterest and try and kid myself that reading those will make everything ok…but in reality that really isn’t going to solve my problems, or debt issues! I need to face these and solve them.. and THEN believe that life is too short and start living.

I think I may have even solved my question by writing this post… Having this realisation four days ago triggered my anxiety. I just need to learn to cope with it.

Life is definitely a journey and each year I can say I do learn so much about myself, but the more I learn the more I look back and think.. what were you doing Charlotte! I want to scream at myself, I wish I could go back and change things.. but I can’t.

So time to get on with it I suppose!

 

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