Thank you for getting this far and most likely stumbling across this blog and finding it by pure chance.
I am not quite sure where to begin. Perhaps lets start with why I am doing this… why have I decided to create a new blog at this point in my life? I’m 25, I work 9am-6pm Monday to Friday, I’m up at 5:20am to get my sweat on. I get home at 7:45pm and by the time I have eaten, showered, sorted out my bag for the following day, it is practically bed time. My boyfriend and friends take up my evenings and weekends. I most definitely would say I am a busy bee and I do not have a lot of time to spare!
I think first and foremost it is important to share my thoughts and mindset which has led me to finally starting a blog of my own. I am embarking on a journey of self-love.. a journey that began a few years back. My mum had Breast Cancer and I practically went into hibernation for a whole year. I emerged back into reality a year later, 3 stone heavier and on the brink of depression, I was happy to sleep my life away and I was honestly scared that I would never have the capability to feel happiness again.
One day 2 years ago something clicked and a huge anxiety came over me … I was WASTING life. I was letting each day slip away and I had nothing to show for it. I prepared myself for a long journey to get myself back on track and oh my god what a journey it has been. At that time 2 years ago, I probably failed to prepare myself just how long it would take me to get back to “Charlotte” – I am definitely well on my way and I am the happiest I have been in a long time. I think the most important part of that has been acceptance. Accepting that I do not need to be the same weight I was four years ago. Accepting that I will have bad days. Accepting that I won’t have the motivation to go to the gym every and accepting that some days I just need to devour a HUGE bar of chocolate.
Anyway, as much as I am extremely happy right now I do feel stuck and in limbo and I don’t know why. I love my job and I work extremely hard but I feel like nothing in my life at the moment is for ME. I’m stuck in a routine of 9am-6pm ,which lets face it… is really 5am-9pm (Yes as mentioned I am that annoying person at the gym doors waiting to be let in at 6am!)
I’m rambling a ridiculous amount here so lets stick to the point. What am I going to cover in this blog? I am going to document anything to help me clear my head, a strange sort of therapy I suppose. I have PCOS and continuously want to learn about ways and methods that may help, perhaps I try these myself and share my findings. This blog is basically going to be an insight into my brain. How I’m feeling, what I’ve been doing.. this is my creative get-away and as the name of this blog suggests… This is my Haven.
“A plan is not always needed. Sometimes you just need to breathe, let go and trust the universe.”